"The only reason I was backing out of Summer Project was because I felt inadequate, scared, and anxious. All of those things are lies from the Enemy!"
What personal insecurities do you have as you consider about giving your summer to the Lord?
What practical steps can you take to help you move forward in making a decision?
Who can you talk with about this?
Sarah struggled with personal insecurities.
What made you realize God was calling you to go on summer project?
I knew the need in Russia and I was being given the opportunity to go. However, I tried to come up with other things to do for my summer. Then one of my friends asked, “Sarah, why would you not go on Summer Project?” I said, “Because I am scared.” That was when I realized the only reason I was backing out of Summer Project was because I felt inadequate, scared, and anxious. All of those things are lies from the Enemy! Apart from Christ I am inadequate, but I have Jesus in me and with Him I am fully adequate to be a minister of the Gospel in Moscow! That night I decided to be all in and go on a Summer Project.
What obstacle did you encounter along the way?
Battling anxiety made it really scary preparing to go to Moscow. I felt really inadequate and was fearful all the time. There was actually a point before going where it consumed my thoughts all the time! I did not want to go. I felt like being overseas for 5 weeks was just too much to handle.
What was the turning point?
These thoughts revealed to me that I did not trust the Lord. I realized I was relying on myself, and that I was not trusting God to take care of me even if I did experience anxiety in Moscow! Finally I decided to trust Jesus Christ with my battle against anxiety and fear. I decided it was not worth it to miss out on seeing lives changed by the Gospel!
What practical steps did you take during the process?
I told other believers me about my fears. For a long time, I tried to cover my emotions and fears. It was incredibly harmful. Once I became vulnerable and open to other believers and had them pray with me and for me, everything changed.
What do you recommend to others who face a similar obstacle?
I would tell a believer who struggles with fear and anxiety to go on Summer Project. Step out of your comfort zone and trust God! Do not believe the lies that the Enemy is feeding you! Jesus Christ is far bigger than your fears. Summer Project is the healthiest environment to face your fears in. I was with 14 people who were walking through life with me, supporting me, and helping me battle my fears. I learned fear is not a good reason to miss out on the best summer of your life!
Sarah attended Moscow Summer Project in 2013.